Saturday, April 30, 2011

NOT KNOWING WHAT TO WRITE ABOUT IS PART OF MY BIG BAG OF LAZINESS

I always have some excuse to procrastinate, I have conditioned myself to be this big bag of laziness. I always wanted to blog ever since I watched a lot of desteni videos to investigate self, and writing myself to freedom but I always gave in too my laziness. I am actually the laziest person i know. I don't like the fact that I am lazy but i am so use to it I by accepting it so much that it is just who I am now. I see this and i no longer want it to be who i am. I didn't know of a website where one can blog on about oneself until seven months ago, this is when Joe Kou, a destonian, told me on my youtube account about blogspot. Now this was seven months ago, when I was told about blogspot, so im pretty sure you all can see how lazy I am. Its been seven months of me knowing about this site and not once did I tell myself to make an account to blog. So thats how I know I have conditioned myself into being this bag of laziness. The whole time I just hung out with friends playing games and smoking, thats "all" I did. -
So I forgive myself for accepting and allow laziness to be me.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing me to be controlled by my conditioned laziness.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to procrastinate on investigating me.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not be honest by exposing myself for all to see.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing my fears to control my very being.
- So I thought about blogging as soon as I woke up today, and started thinking, wtf do I write about. I had no idea, and I saw that as me being lazy. I almost excused myself from blogging because I didn't know what to write about. Not knowing what to write about when I fill my day with procrastinating bullshit. My laziness is a system inside me that I have created through my participation with laziness and always gets me no where. It gives me nothing, and the more I participate in it the more I fall into being lazy and seeing it as acceptable. What I have accepted to be me is not acceptable, I need to direct myself in order to stop this system that I have created through my constant and daily participation. No longer will I continue abusing the fact that I have a physical body that requires movement and breathe. When I participate in my laziness I don't pay attention to attention to my breathe meaning I am not here, meaning I exist as a system that I have created in the mind. My laziness is a big part of my ego as well, so I know this will take time and a lot writing to get rid of. So the next few blogs I do will most likely be about how lazy I am and how I don't stand because of it.
I pretty much do nothing all day, no responsibilities, and I almost didn't blog today. Where do i expect to end up with these unjustifiable non-actions? I will end up missing out on what life is really about by not knowing myself. By leaving all my actions on automatic like a robot because of this system called laziness. Who will I be but some system in the mind that goes nowhere with its repetitive actions. I no longer want this to be the  me that I've so until i have enough money for the desteni i process, I will continue to write and not continue as my laziness system/habit.

Friday, April 29, 2011

what would i do and who would i be if i woke up in an equal money system

So i saw a butt load of tag your it videos on youtube to answer the question on, " who would you be in an equal money system?" I would not be the person I am now, that is for sure. The person i am now is always thinking about money. If i all of a sudden woke up in a world where every human is equally supported by money than no one would starve or work themselves to death. Knowing that all of life would be equally supported by money in an equal money system would mean that the plants, animals, and the planet will be taken care of. Is it not man's responsibility to take care of this place we all as life share? Instead we abuse, destroy, and consume all of what the planet gives us in the name of money. Money is everyones problem, including the animals, plants, and the planet, because they all suffer because of our desire for money. Money will be the solution, but only in an equal money system can money be the solution because it only supports what is best for all. This is how i would be a totally different person in an equal money system because instead of supporting the abusive money system that day by day continuously destroys life, i would be someone that continuously supports in taking care of the planet and all life for us now and future generations.
Now what would i do if i woke up in an equal money system? I would obviously be happy because i know all would be experiencing this same happiness. We would all be millionaires and supported by one another, so i would express my happiness to others. We would all live in harmony, together as one, so there would be no fear of expression, only freedom of expression. I know that i would not be the only one experiencing this glorious day so i would go share it with others.
So tag your it!!!!!!!!!! if you read this than blog then blog about who you would be in an equal money system and what you would do and if you have been introduced to the equal money system then i suggest you check it out on http://www.equalmoney.org